Before I Fall

"How is it possible to change so much but not being able to change anything at all ?" This movie just hurts it hurts so bad it's so just soul crushing , touched my soul and heart so deeply that i just can't stop crying . I feel so much because of it , how she's stuck repeating the same day over and over and changing and realising things and realising that what actually matters in life , how she realized that she's been such a bully including Lindsay ( god she is so annoying , they were all so annoying and reminded me of my bullies and i didn't even wanna sympathise because oh look the bully finally saw how life really is outside of her little bubble and realized that people are affected by what she says or does ) but really i just kept feeling so much for her , i am also repeating the same day over and over with just slight differences . It's the fact that she finally knew what she had to do , and then in the end what was meant to be just happened and oh it is so so sad and it all just hurts how any day could be your last , or someone else's because who knows ? Little details could change your entire destiny , or someone else's .... So that is exactly why she says " maybe for you there's a tomorrow , maybe for you there's one thousand or three thousand or ten .... so much time you can bathe in it , so much you can waste it .... But for some of us there's only today and what YOU do today matters in the moment or maybe into infinity " .... I really can't express how this movie made me feel it will never be enough and I will never shut up about it .... I don't trust anyone who gave it a low rating or a bad review Side note , i got so happy when I heard genesis by grimes lol :)