Don Philip Alabata

> *I needn't mention how essential dreaming is to the character of the rock star.* Wow! Cult Vault at Palace Barracks with my wonderful friends Imogen and Jackson !!! Phoenix we miss you get that tire fixed Now no more missing movies ever !!! Forgot a lot of what transpires in this rather insane queer glam rock fantasia inspired heavily by David Bowie and Iggy Pop. Was magical in a cinema played fairly loud, thank you Barracks (unlike for *Phantom of the Paradise*, jeeez)! An all-time incredible soundtrack that is worthy of the true cinema experience, pulsating and powerful in all the best ways. Jonathan Rhys Meyers all-time face card. Christian Bale and Ewan McGregor looking beautiful. Toni Collette doing accent work. All the best things in one spot! Entrancing, beautiful and bedazzled in glitter, there's little to truly dislike about this film. I think maybe some of the music sequences stretch in length, but with a soundtrack like this I don't think you can complain too much about it. Wasn't in the most locked in mode I've ever been but yeah I really enjoyed my time with this. My friends actually enjoyed it more than I did which rocks because I was the one who suggested watching it and I like making other people happy this rules !!!

> *My father's daughter.* New Farm Queer Film Festival with my dear friends Imogen, Phoenix and Jackson!!! Was very impressed by Kristen Stewart's dreamy debut feature, an adaptation of Lidia Yuknavitch's memoir of the same name. Feels exactly how you'd expect her vision to be imparted and I did really like a lot of the choices she made in general. Fairly messy and feels far longer than the runtime, but generally pretty great at conveying the complex emotions and situations that are very very present in the narrative. Sure it isn't perfectly handled, but I don't think any film with these set of events could ever really do that. Big issue is general pacing and time jumps. A lot of time is covered in this film and very little is conveyed in a way that doesn't involve someone saying time passed explicitly. Unless I'm dumb there's a sequence where about 8 years of her life passes and we see very little of what actually happened while she has little to no change in physical appearance. It may be an artistic choice but it didn't work for me. Was mega blindsided by some of the story beats considering I went in fairly blind for this. They're saying this and *Blue Film* are the double feature that kills me specifically! Utterly and rightfully terrifying portrayal of sexual abuse by a parent. There's a moment where they stop on a frame of young Claudia (as played spectacularly by Marlena Sniega) and her expression completely haunted me for the rest of the film. Had some issues but generally quite liked this and I'm very excited to see what's next for Kristen Stewart in the director's chair!

> *Just wait til' you're older. > You'll remember all of it.* NEW FARM QUEER FILM FESTIVAL This was the film I wanted to watch the most out of the festival lineup (hey, it's literally the poster!) and I absolutely definitely had a great time where I didn't cry and didn't feel anything ever. Let's not talk about it! I am the creator of my own destruction. Fun with my wonderful friends Imogen, Phoenix and Jackson!!! I don't really know how to begin to verbalise what I feel about this film beyond the grand provocation of it all. As someone who's favourite filmmaker is Spike Lee, I'm naturally very drawn to an artist provocateur. *Blue Film* is a brilliant work of art that forces you to look at a monster in the eyes and realise that the monster is a human being, who lives, breathes, and thinks tangible thoughts, who made a conscious effort to act on their thoughts, and who had a life that led to these thoughts coming to fruition. Who can laugh, cry, feel, love. And it really is the love that's the scariest to me. Speaking from experience, it's so deeply harrowing to me when I see someone like this laughing and feeling. It does nothing to comfort me that these people have the capacity to think and feel. I think it comforts more people to think of these folks as uncomplex evils, and not the living and breathing humans they really are. That's what makes it so horrifying. To say that they could be any one of us is probably disengenuous, but to say that a monster like that looks and thinks and acts and IS one of us is a pill that can get quite hard to swallow for some folks. Writer/director Elliot Tuttle did an incredible job at portraying this discomfort and his control over the melodramatic, the darkly comedic, and the sickly romantic is incredible. There is so little innate judgement placed on these characters - in fact, they're portrayed in quite a sympathetic way - and that allows us to view them from a much more intimate and interesting angle, one that succeeded in making me as uncomfortable as possible. Kieron Moore and Reed Birney! Tens across the board. If Moore doesn't get booked and busy after that there's no justice in our world. What an powerhouse performance that absolutely wrecked me to my core. In the same mode as Trevante Rhodes in *Moonlight* and Joseph Gordon-Levitt in *Mysterious Skin*. This one really got me. Hollowed my ass out! Loved it.