Sherlock: The Reichenbach Fall

i'm crying oh my god that was literally torture to my heart. "no one will ever convince me that you told me a lie" and "i was so alone and i owe you so much" so just drop me baby let me die. the plan to convince everyone sherlock was a fraud was actually crazily smart on moriarty's part, he really trapped him in a corner. i gasped when he shot himself because shitttt this revenge business is that serious for him!! and i'm not just saying that because we got protective and defensive ass john. punching the guy who called sherlock a weirdo? them holding hands to run together? scoffing and getting mad at sherlock's own brother for pretty much giving everything away to moriarty? of course the press thought they were dating. i ate this burger up SHAMELESSLY. which brings me to their phone call. the fact that john is the person he wanted to speak to last. the break in john's voice trying to convince sherlock not to do this. "i'm a doctor, let me through please, he's my friend." they had to hold him back UGHHHHH. him feeling for his pulse. i'm so sad john has no idea this plan was to protect him from being assassinated. and now he can't go back to their flat together. it hurts.