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**Rachel What’s the worst thing you’ve ever done? ** Oh my a lot to unpack here. I’ll start with the artistic aspect of it as in acting, directing, writing etc. It is quite a well written and directed film by a quite underrated director Kristoffer Borgli. Borgli is known for his indie-esque films and that’s why an A24 movie made sense. The editing is also exceptional. Now acting wise, not the best not the worst I’ve seen. Pattinson’s performance felt off same in contrast to that of Zendaya and Alana Haim. Now I’ll talk a bit about the story because it truly is so complex. In my eyes every character is flawed to an extent. I’ll start light with Mike, pretty evident from his story and the clips of him discussing the whole Emma case, he is a pushover, he is spineless and unable to stand up from himself or have an opinion. When Charlie blamed Emma, he blamed Emma, when Charlie defended her so did he. Now Rachel, people hate her and I do too but she’s not the villain in this story. Is she a terrible friend? Yes absolutely! But that can be attributed before the reveal after it’s not really her “fault”, and by that I mean that she is simply horrified and just trying to bring Charlie to reason. Is she doing it in the best way? Hell no! But she is. Also when it comes to her story her self-centred nature shows. Now Charlie, he is a man in love that has found out something so horrific about his partner, and before people say she didn’t go through with it, most times it’s the thought that counts. Charlie wants to react, he wants to do something, he wants someone to validate his feelings, he wants a reason. But he doesn’t get it. The Misha cheating aspect also shows his need for a reaction, his need to “break-free” but ultimately he is sentenced to the same fate as Emma, committing a terrible action that alters how his partner sees him (and no I’m not equating murder to cheating). Lastly Emma, the best written character of the film and Borgli’s approach doesn’t plainly tell you what defines Emma. Is she a psychopath? We don’t know! Did she not follow through because someone else stole the spotlight? No clue! Does she feel remorse? We can only guess! The only thing Borgli’s approach makes clear is that Emma is trying to be good. That being said something else came to mind which perfectly explains Charlie with his respective actions and that is a poem by Mary Oliver from “Green, Green is my Sister’s House” where she writes “Truly I try to be good, but sometimes a person has to break out” and I think that defines Charlie but is also the opposite of Emma. Emma broke out and is now constantly punishing herself (rightfully some would say) trying to be good. Now is it a bad thing that she’s trying to be good? Obviously not, I just use the word “punishing” as a lack of a better word and as a reason to show that most her kindness and compassion and actions in life are determined and affected by the thought she had at 15. Overall a very good movie with a complex set of characters that are seen differently by every single person that watched it. *P.S. Rachel is by no means a good person, none of them are, but she still is trying to bring sense Ito a senseless thought and reason to Charlie, showing that you can be not a good person (I don’t wanna say bad it’s too black and white) but still condemn actions and that is fine. Because acceptance of actions isn’t always defined by society’s moral compass but our own. For example I have met people that condemn suicide, and claim it’s a worse sin than cheating. Do I agree? Hell fucking no! But still they are right to judge with their own moral compass.*

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