Brokeback Mountain

sometimes i miss you so much i can hardly stand it literally could tell that this would be a 5 star film after the first quarter. beautiful cinematography and music and acting and literally everything. i always get a weird feeling watching these types of movies like i'm so touched by how beautiful it is but i get so sad too (like even before the thing at the end iykyk) because their relationship is so pure and beautiful and the film is so beautiful in every aspect but the way that this is literally the only way people could pursue a relationship like this back when and even still in some parts of the world is so fucking heartbreaking. like it makes me sad but happy at the same time because i get to realize how far we've come in a big part of the world but i also get reminded that there will always be some kind of stigma around queer people and that we will always be seen as 'different'. so i guess just all of that combined and more and just the beauty of the film and ugh I can't explain if but it always just makes me feel so strange and it's a heartaching feeling but it's also beautiful. so i was just watching this movie with a weird pit in my stomach from beginning to end. also just seeing them getting mad at eachother because they are afraid of themselves so fucking heartbreaking literally sobbing like why the fuck is the world like this it makes me so mad. anyways could talk about this film for ages but i'm just rambling on. i loved this so so so much def one of my new favorites of all time and will never stop thinking of this ever again.