Black Swan

‘I felt it… it was perfect’ Rightfully so because holy shit this movie was perfect.  The anxiety I had throughout most of this film made it such a thriller, and paved the path for me to analyse the deep meaning and psychology behind Nina’s character - there is so much to analyse. I mainly want to focus on her transformation into the black swan because it links to other aspects such as her hallucinations and fixation on Lily. Instantly after Nina gets the role of the swan queen, she begins to experience the presence of the black swan, and the dark force of it begins to ascend in contrast to the white swan. We know that Nina is better at portraying the white swan, hence she feels this urge to perfect her portrayal of the black swan, which is when Nina suffers mentally and fails to suppress the black swan, essentially she invites it. Therefore, her ambition to be perfect supersedes her state of normality, causing an imbalance in her mind; leading to her fixation on Lily and hallucinations. Those scenes with Lily and Nina really creeped the fuck outta me, including the one during the Swan Lake performance where she stabs ‘Lily’ but instead stabs herself, indicating she has now become the Black Swan. Furthermore, I want to focus on a lot of other scenes where I’m not entirely sure whether she was hallucinating or not. For example, every scene with her mom, I’m pretty sure she was a hallucination because her mom interacts with Lily and the paintings were definitely a hallucination and her ‘mom’ drew them. Also, the scene with ‘Lily’ and Nina in her room (and some other scenes) are weird but meaningful due to the black swan embracing her hidden sexuality; we see this when she also kisses Leroy as the Black Swan. Overall, a thrilling masterpiece that leaves you with infinite questions because there is clearly no right or wrong answers regarding a lot of scenes. Natalie Portman did in fact deserve the Oscar for this performance because it blew me away. She took the role and perfected it, very ironically.