Aftersun

can't remember any time my dad hasn't tried to ruin a family vacation. now we can't really travel with him anymore because he had a stroke. i wish i had anything to remember him by other than him taking space in the sofa and his corny jokes. i wish that was just it. i wish i could forgive him for what he's said and what he's failed to say. i wish he reached out more. i wish i could atleast hug him like i mean it before he leaves us forever. tiny things like us never seeing the film photo develop into color is such a great way to show how sometimes we'll never get to see the end, or even know it's about to.