Aftersun

the thing about this is its subtlety. there is nothing massive bound to happen and it is seemingly lighthearted from the looks of its visuals. then you realize the point as you pay more attention and thats it! it brings out the understanding needed by those who go through it. it grows uneasy as you watch the fear, misery, and regrets manifest with the way calum acts, even more when it hits you the vacation is a facade to that. then it cuts deeper when you try to look at things the way he does - fearing growing older, regretting the loss of an evanescent youth, and the inability to provide for your child - the heaviness is just unimaginable. the juxtaposition needs to be talked about too. the curiousity and discovery from sophie's coming of age and the existential crisis in calum. thats a whole spectrum. it hits way too close to home. i feel that way for the soundtrack too especially that some of them are among my favorite classics. hello?? losing my religion? under pressure? ending is so good i actually cried. it doesnt tell what happened in particular but it shows that all that calum goes back to after that vacation is his last dance with his daughter, which is sophie's last memory of him too. and that hurts enough more than what it couldve been if we actually knew.