Before I Disappear

"I have stumbled upon a part of me that wants to see the sun rise tomorrow. A part of me that has been buried deep inside for so many years."I am in complete awe of this movie. Complete. And utter. Awe. I have to thank whatever led me to this moment to watch the short film and then the full version of this movie because you have given me the chance to watch a movie with such raw encapsulating emotions that I identify with so so so fucking closely. Richie is this underdog that you are in complete love with. Shawn Christensen wrote this screenplay with such a masterful way of words, eloquently allowing me to swim through his ocean of emotions and self reflection. There are so many incredible quotes within this movie that I wanted to use for this review but, for the love of god HOW am i meant to choose between incredible and just as incredible.  There was a slight fear in me before I watched this of course, I had such high expectations due to the short film ‘Curfew’ and was so worried that the elements that made me fall in love with Curfew would not transfer over into Before I Disappear. To my absolute delight, that wasn’t the case at all and if anything they added and built onto my favourite qualities of the short in this movie. The cinematography of this movie is so inspiring to me and well, to put it simply, gorgeous! There was a play on drunken movement that just grabbed me as an audience.  Richie... oh sweet poor little Richie. I love you so fucking much. I’m such a SUCKER for the unlikely male/dad figure and a young girl trope like holy shit it’s kinda embarrassing. But, Richie’s care and devotion to Sophia despite only knowing her for a short amount of time just seriously warms my heart. Richie isn’t a cold hearted person, he’s a broken hearted person. He’s in grief, desperation and swimming in his own pool of loneliness and self pity. Sophia picks up on this, she realises the utter despair that reeks off of Richie and takes it upon herself to help him. They need each other. Richie needs a purpose in life, his niece is his purpose. Sophia needs a male figure that isn’t a dead beat father, she needs her uncle. we see this with the quote  “Yesterday I would’ve told you to kill me, but today I have a niece.” lastly, I just wanna sign off this review with one of my favourites from this movie. One that we didn’t get to explore or see in the Curfew short film.  *Dear Vista,  i love you.  i miss you so much. *Watch. This. Fucking. Movie. (And curfew)