Lilya 4-ever

A movie has never left me so depressed in my life. It’s literally the saddest film I’ve ever seen and I don’t cry from films usually but this made me cry so bad even as the credits were rolling. I don’t even want to rate this film because I feel like if I give it five stars it means I enjoy the suffering that went on in the film so I would actually give it half a star for how it made me feel but five stars for the reaction that it got out of me if that makes sense. I wish I didn’t watch it especially right now in my life, but it made me think a lot. I hate how she turned into her mother and left Volodja like that but at least she tried to make his life better when she was with him. Anytime he would show up as her angel it would just set me off again crying. Literally any time I even think of the film it just makes me tear up I genuinely could never watch this film again. It’s such a hopeless story. All she wanted was a better life and then she got a life worse than the one she already had. It really made me think about how I see my life and that it can always get worse especially if I try to change anything about it. Side note the soundtrack is amazing and I love every song used in the film.