Blue Valentine

I have been sat here, for about 10 minutes trying to figure out what to say. No I have the stuff to say. I’m just  sat here processing all of that. Agony, so well let’s just start, okay the film was pure agony to watch to be honest. I knew it was supposed to be sad because my friend Nat kept explaining the film like this “😊” but holy shit I did not expect this. It’s like trying to get back up after being stabbed (not that I have been) and then they keep pounding into you again and again. It just keeps getting worse until your left there bleeding to death. But then they aren’t even happy they have to kick you even further. That’s what this film is like. The acting, the performances were so raw. The whole film felt completely raw to be honest. I am struggling to think of words to describe how painful this film was. But the acting just pours salt to the wound because of how painful it is. The acting is so incredible between the two actors. They have such a great chemistry in this film. By chemistry the only chemical thing their making is acid to pour in your mouth. Because this film is hell.  Never want to see this film again, I never want to watch this again. I went in blind which is how you should go in usually. But NO I was not prepared for any of this. It’s so cruel and unforgivable. To the point their practically spitting on your grave. It’s the most emotionally raw film I’ve ever seen. That I fear is realistic. It’s given me fear for marriage, but mainly Ryan Goslings hair in this because god damn.  I am now even more depressed than I already was, the film has given me even more severe depression. Which I didn’t think was possible. It’s got me lying in my bed staring at my ceiling thinking. “What did I just watch”. I’ll tell you what you just watched. A cinematic masterpiece that had such raw emotion that it was almost unbearable.  One of those films you can only see once, unless you are a complete psychopath. This is one of those films you can only see once because of how tragically beautiful it is. The story is so devastating but also at points so uplifting. There are so many moments where you think okay this is sweet. Then BAM they hit you with another soul crushing scene. You really can’t catch a break. It’s as if you where in a fight by yourself against 20 guys. It’s just unfair. I want to curl up into a ball and just die, I genuinely don’t know what to do. I feel like one of the people on TikTok after watching aftersun. I want to just curl up into a ball and die inside. Well I am not in fact the same person I was after watching this. Because I’m even more depressed. How can something so tragic, yet be so beautiful. Specifically talking about the past being beautiful. Just wanted to clarify. Arguably going in my top 4, I think this is just phenomenal. It deserves a place in my top 4. Because of how incredible it is. But also how it made me feel. I don’t know a film that has made me feel so much pain and agony like this one. I was genuinely thinking of to stop watching the film. But I pushed forward. It was painfully good. The problem, I don’t see any problems with this film. But if you want the film to get more cheerful, only watch the beginning. Because this film gets WORSE the more you watch. Each scene it gets worse. So don’t expect oh it’ll be better after this right? No its the opposite. It gets WORSE THE MORE YOU WATCH. Would I recommend this? Yes I would highly recommend and suggest watching this. Not with a family member though. But in all seriousness though, the film is genuinely heartbreaking. It breaks you down into tiny little pieces to then stomp on them. To then burn them. To then shoot them etc.  Overall, my conclusion is, I could either write an actual conclusion or just say never watching this again. But I will write an actual one. The film was such a great film but I don’t think I could ever stomach another rewatch. It got to a point where I started feeling sick watching this film because I wanted to stop because it was so unforgettable. I will never watch this again.