May

OK. for starters..BEST FUCKING SOUNDTRACK OF. ALL. TIME. The Breeders, “Do You Love Me Now?” was a legendary fucking pull; i’m still not quite over the excitement of hearing it in a movie.. y'all could never understand how badly i relate to this bitch on so many levels really oh my godddddd. secondly.. normalize complimenting hands? this might sound totally perverted but I interpreted May’s fixation over hands to be so much deeper than desire and lustfulness but rather rooted in her need to feel real, alive, and unburdensome. hands bear both truthfulness and tenderness and her persistent hunger to be touched was both her way of knowing what was honest and proving to herself she was there and present, but more importantly, that someone really wanted her to be there. she doesn’t just fixate on Adam’s hands, but her own as well. they become a vessel of manifestation, adhering to careful precision and dedication in her attempts to create what she is unbearably absent of. she is willing to give up and destroy so much of herself both physically and emotionally to be seen, understood, and to escape alienation.