May

Watched this after a crying crashout session and i loved this sm! This film depicted loneliness like no other and after watching this all i wanted to do was hug the writer/director because i feel this film is drawn from his personal experiences. I was pretty lonely back then.. time was so hard to pass by but i endured… there are certain habits that you build when you are lonely that are also present in the film but in a different way like for me it was carassing my hair and pinching myself so hard just so i can feel something on my skin. It is is rather scary to be lonely.. it sucks the life outta you and is pretty hard to get out of.  Talking about may.. May is fucked. May is miserable. May is psychotic. May is too far gone.. but above all shes just a human wrapped in fragility and loneliness. I wish i could hug her. Because ik how badly i craved a hug during those times.. i do now too. When u are lonely every other touch becomes a huge deal to you.. a side hug or a handshake but even now after all those years i am scared of touches. i want it bad enough but its still the same.  When i kissed for the first time i kind repelled and was anxious and what not just like how any other person might be even tho i loved my first kiss but even still the deep rooted loneliness made me more anxious and kind of scared.  I loved it because yea its personal to me but It should have been longer in my opinion with more layers but nevertheless a good film