Safe

I absolutely do not know where to start first - Julianne Moore I LOVE HER SO MUCH, I've seen her in other films and she totally embodies Carol, extremely well to the point my heart aches for her. But Safe is a film I've seen unlike any other, it's just that my mind is all over? I was totally unaware of the premise of this film and it's depiction of Multiple Chemical Sensitivity, in many ways it feels like a very subtle horror around health anxiety and I can't possibly imagine what it must feel like to have any kind of sickness that suddenly impacts your entire life, it's terrifying. Initially when Carol goes to contain her MCS at Wrenwood I felt an impending doom that it might have gone down the route of being a cult but it didn't ! I really don't want to make comparisons but the ambient music really made me reminisce on David Lynch? This entire film just feels so mysterious, bleak and dark and it's fascinating to me. Probably one of the most impactful scenes to me (out of many) was when Carol was watching Lester and Peter goes "Oh, poor Lester. He's just... Very, very afraid. Afraid to eat, afraid to breathe." Like wow, it really struck something inside me. Same goes for when Carol watched Lester later on and he's walking with his fear. I really do think Todd Haynes makes this into a film about anxiety, health and community but I also do wonder in many ways - is it better to shield yourself from the rest of the world and will Carol have her regrets or is it truly the best way to improve the quality of life? But in a way I've answered my own question because the ending itself is so simple but effective. Carol telling herself in the mirror that she loves herself. Considering every single thing about Safe, Haynes really managed to turn the atmosphere into an isolating one, even on the motorway in the city but I guess that's because for about the majority of the time Carol is home or she's in more contained spaces, I absolutely love the ambience, the look of everything, the locations they filmed in... Seriously how quiet everything felt. I really feel for everyone suffering with a chronic illness. My heart's pounding but all I have to say is that I know for a fact I won't forget about this film, easily one of my favourite watches of this year and all time - I genuinely feel so amazed.