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*Film so personal and intimate yet so distant.* > ***It's more than math, Mike. It's immaculate perfection.*** My Own Private Idaho is one of those films that are truly perfect and I shan't be convinced otherwise. Gus Van Sant achieves this beautiful filming style, the color in this is just wonderful and the way everything feels so distinctive. The way memories seemed detached but so close and the way it made Mike feel but me as a viewer seeing him, feeling him. Most intimate scenes, sex scenes, represented in a way I've never seen before, in such an endearing way that you're not seeing the action yet it just feels right. Who would've thought a film about two prostitutes would have really passionate sexual scenes. Mike is one of the best film characters I've ever set eyes on. One of my favorite details is the way he talks out loud. You're hearing him, and in a way he's talking to you as a viewer, but he's also expressing himself. Such a natural character. Doing what he does despite everything he's been through. He's such a peculiar character that doesn't even show much emotion yet he's so expressive. Scott truly defines me. As much as Mike is my favorite, and the one I feel the deepest connection to, Scott reminds me of myself. He isn't truly aiming to be selfish, as self-centered as his actions may seem, he's just doing the best for him and trying to prove himself to people he doesn't even like. But his wishes were more important than everything he had been. The constant need to prove himself better and waiting until last moment to do so. The campfire scene. Truly the most profound scene in the movie. The way feelings exchange and hearts are broken. The way emotions change so suddenly and tears are shed. The way how platonic and romantic it is in a way that can't be expressed. You feel the emotions, like they're radiating off of them. You feel the love, the reject, the friendship, the warmth. > ***I love you and you don't pay me.*** True love. Hidden emotions. Life. Surviving. Bob's funeral. The funeral. The way you're the happiest with your friends. Maybe not the best people alive, maybe not the healthiest relationships. But they were living the life. Also a deeply personal scene, as fun as it may seem. The way it shows what life Scotty abandoned, how you can see the slightest of regret in his eyes. Ever so slightly yet noticeable. I can't really come close to explain what this movie is to me. What it means. What impact it has made. Love much. > ***Whatever, wherever, have a nice day.***