Looking for Alaska

i know its a show but i have to put this here. im sobbing uncontrollably this is my new favourite thing ever. this is genuinely one of the sadest things ive ever watched and i havent sobbed so hard at something like this in so long. whoever created this ruined my night. i have just spent over 400 mins binging this and im actually distraught. “i know so many last words but ill never know hers, ill never know her thoughts or her last words” killed me off. alaska was such a cutie man. why didnt i watvh this sooner