Soul

i think Soul broke something quiet inside me and i don’t really know how to put it into words without it sounding like i’m falling apart a little. i went in expecting something light, something nice. instead i got hit with this quiet kind of heartbreak. it’s not loud about what it’s trying to say. it sits beside you and slowly makes you realize you’ve been chasing something your whole life without even knowing if you wanted it in the first place. joe thinking his “moment” would finally make everything make sense, only to learn that maybe life was never meant to be that defined… that hurt more than i expected it to. and 22—god. 22 felt like every part of me that doesn’t know where it’s going, but is too tired to pretend it does. it made me think about all the things i usually overlook. the in-between moments. the ordinary days. the way sunlight hits the floor for no reason at all. and somehow that’s what it calls a life. i don’t think i’ll stop thinking about it anytime soon.