Bones and All

“you don’t think i’m a bad person?” “all i think is that i love you” I just remembered that I never logged this movie before but I just rewatched it so.. I am obsessed with Taylor Russel and Timothée Chalamet’s acting. They both portrayed their characters so beautifully and every single line makes my heart ache. I see cannibalism as a metaphor for love, because no matter how much it makes you sick, no matter how much it hurts, you cannot stop yourself from feeling it. You try to starve it out, you try to turn away, but you always find your way back. To the hunger. To the ache. To the need to be filled. This hunger has nothing to do with desire. It isn’t about bodies or wanting to touch. It’s about needing someone so completely that their absence feels unbearable, like starvation. What draws them together lives deeper than the physical. it lives where choice no longer exists. The type of love portrayed in the film is not soft. It is consuming. It hurts until it hollows you, until there is nothing left but want. And only when you give in completely, when you take everything, bones and all, does the hunger quiet. Only then does it feel like enough. Enough pain. Enough longing. Enough love. “To love me is to suffer me” - Nettles by Ethel Cain.