Thunderbolts*

This movie. this fucking movie. I'm gonna be real open in this review, bc ppl need to understand how important this film is. im not a professional review writer or critic, these are just my thoughts pouring out. so slight tw. i went in just expecting your regular mcu film, probably pretty good, hopefully better than most recent marvel content, and just a fun film. but this one really, really hit me. firstly, the style of the film is awesome. following yelena's struggles in life after nat's death was really meaningful, and her relation with alexei (who's hilarious in this one) is both beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time. him remembering her as a child, bc he actually was her father for a while, was really moving. then there's walker. walker's complexity in this film made him so much better than in tfatw. seeing his difficult family life and him lying about it, trying to cover it up was also hard to see, but really gave him way more depth as a character, and made me like him a lot more. and then bob. fucking bob. bob made this film really, really personal. first off, lewis pullman was perfect casting for the role. second, his arc and story. my god. having gone through similar life experiences regarding abuse and addiction, this really hit home. the second layer above that is seeing the mental disorder which i've been trying to cope with as well, and seeing it represented so well is what finally broke me. i can definitely relate to the feelings he has, of feeling invincible for a time, and then dipping really low, and i think the Sentry/Void relation, which is obviously already a thing in the comics but still, really represented this in a beautiful way. we are not alone. there are people who stand by us, and are there for us. don't always listen to the inner voice telling you horrible things. seeing bipolarity represented in such a major movie just feels really, really important and it had me emotional all the way through. the only things they could've improved on was giving bucky and ava personalities. i learned nothing about ava, and its weird she didnt get a room (or at least we didnt see it). bucky also fell a little flat to me in this one. overall, i might have a new favorite marvel movie, and im gonna be thinking ab this one for a while.