Beautiful Boy

Someone asked me "what's your problem?" and i said " i'm an alcoholic and an addict." and he said..."No, that's how you've been treating your problem." I know now i need to find a way, to fill this...big...black hole in me. Beautiful boy. i don't think he was trying to ruin his life, i think he just... didn't know how to live in it. when you have a black hole in you, maybe it's not always something you can fill. maybe you just.. you stop trying to get rid of it all the time. and then, sometimes... something good gets in. even if it's small. you just have to... let it enfold you, as Bukowski said.