Oslo, August 31st
"I want to marry, have kids. Travel the world. Buy a house. Have romantic holidays. Eat only ice cream for a day. Live abroad. Reach and maintain my ideal weight. Write a great novel. Stay in touch with old friends. I want to plant a tree. Make a delicious dinner from scratch. Feel completely successful. Go ice bathing, swim with dolphins. Have a birthday party, a proper one. Live to be a hundred. Stay married until I die. Send an exciting message in a bottle and get an equally interesting reply. Overcome all my fears and phobias. Lie watching the clouds all day. Have an old house full of knick knacks. Run a full marathon. Read a book that’s so great I’ll remember quotes from it all my life. Paint stunning pictures that show how I really feel. Cover a wall with paintings and words close to my heart. Own all the seasons of my favourite shows. Attract attention to an important issue, make people listen to me. Go skydiving, skinny-dipping, fly a helicopter. Have a good job I look forward to every day. I want a romantic, unique proposal. Sleep beneath open skies. Hike on Besseggen, act in a film or play at the National Theatre. Win a fortune in the lottery. Make useful everyday items. AND BE LOVED."
This is one of the scenes that related to me so much it got me crying. anders sitting in that café, overhears a woman describing her future ordinary ambitions, while he was feeling disconnected...struggling to picture himself existing in a meaningful way even a few days from now. i always think that people and society in general should be kinder and more understanding to those who are trying so hard to stand in the present, because for some of them, the act of imagining a future self can become painfully difficult.
It's hard to get at what i love about this movie. i think it's one of the most honest portrayals of anxiety and depression and it just speaks to me on a deeper level