Lady Bird

who am i without my complex relationship with my mother? lady bird was someone whom i wished i could have been at the same time she was someone who i deeply relates myself with. yung idea niya ng creating her own name to have her own identity as “lady bird” speaks so much about me on how i explored the internet at a very young age, finding my way into the stan twitter and making my own identity (far from my real name). ang pinaka naiinggit ako para kay lady bird ay kung paano niya kausapin ang nanay niya. it took me 19 years to have a real and genuine conversation with my mother. i wished we had a normal mother & daughter relationship just like everybody else. i wished i spent my childhood saying my mom did this to me, my mom said this to me. i yearned for a childhood where i was close to my mom, you know? i love my mother so much that it hurts me so much as well. after everything that had happened, she’s still the person i love the most. pero kung bibigyan man siya ng pagkakataon para magkaroon ng anak ay sana huwag ako ang piliin niya. sana sa next life ay hindi na isang anak na katulad ko ang mayroon siya. sana hindi niya unahin magkaroon ng pamilya at tuparin muna niya ang mga pangarap niya para sa sarili niya. happy mother’s day :)