Brokeback Mountain

a gun up against my temple and pulling the trigger sounds so good right now….  This was one of the few first experiences I ever had with a gay story in film — maybe my first? —  i’m not sure. i first watched back in 2018. I didn’t have letterboxd then so who knows how I really felt but it was certainly life brain chemistry altering. I wanted to kill myself the first time i watched and surprise I still do! just unadulterated tragedy. there is no happiness for any of us!!! they were just boys …. 💔🥀