Taxi Driver

a perfect film about loneliness. other people are there, you're not physically isolated, but you feel like nobody sees you. you observe humanity. but you feel like you cant participate in it. youre watching from above. you really feel it with being stuck in a cab, overhearing conversations from passengers, watching people outside. thats what you do to an extent when youre lonely. and it makes you angry, angry at everybody, angry at yourself. you create a perception that you are better than everyone, you have more insight, you just get it and others don't. you do things you thought youd never do because youre lonely. although ive never killed anybody obvs, but ive definately done things that have hurt people because of it. you have to feign connection in your own head, and imagine what it would be like. you leech and become a parasite onto other people, shown really well by travis's palantine stickers and banners in his apartment even though he says hes not into politics, but betsy is and works for palantine. this film also captures the feeling of there being a beacon of hope, like betsy, a relief from the sharp but constant pain of being alone, and then it gets taken away, its so painful, but in a way it almost feels right. almost feels like this is how it is supposed to be. it always comes back, its always there. you sometimes feel closer to it than any one person, but loneliness isnt a person. doing a little bit better now, but damn it never really leaves you. such a good film