Turning Red

this movie deserves more respect. and one of the reasons why it didn't get any upon release is because of how much it centers experiences of fandom and girlhood. and also because people are racist and misogynistic. maybe upon retrospect, it will. i don't know. this movie holds a special place in my heart and will always. i'm sure there are some criticisms of it that are deserving and rightful. but i cannot dismiss this film. i cannot see its flaws because of how emotionally tied i am to this film. this film is at the center of my thesis for a reason. mei's life literally mirrors my own and my own struggles with my mother and my girlhood. and to hear not just an apology but also a reaffirmation that there's no need to apologize is so rewarding. it's the kind of wish fulfillment i know i will never receive in my real life. this movie healed a part of me that i didn't know needed to be healed. and the universe must've had some grand plan releasing this and everything everywhere all at one within 10 days of each other. 10 fucking days. it was funny that my parents said i would never do any of the things mei does. and i immediately said, "actually if i could have, i would've." all to see seventeen and see jeonghan in person. 1000/5 i need to blow my nose now and wash my face. my eyes are so red and my nose is puffy.