Fallen Angels

Just rewatched this because I wanted to so bad. My ultimate comfort film. It’s  so good at portraying love and loneliness. This movie is like eating a baked good in the middle of a thunderstorm. The rain still showers down on both you and the food. Yet, the baked good is still an undeniable sense of comfort. Something in me always wanted to romanticize loneliness, but even I knew that’s not the smartest thing to do at all times. In the past, that’s all I did and this movie was life changing. It executed perfectly what I had always wanted to capture myself. Before my first watch I would always take pictures of alleyways in 0.5x. After watching I became obsessed with the angles and the color grading. Nothing in my life appealed to me more than living in a wong kar wai film. After leaving that lonely time period of life my experience with this movie is much different. It makes me appreciate the beauty just as much as before. When seeing the characters I also see my past self in them. The connection with them is stronger than ever. Rewatching this film was bittersweet because parting ways with the characters was also saying bye to myself. The message of avoiding a cycle of bad habits is now louder than ever. Sometimes all you can do is romanticize your loneliness/isolation, and that’s okay.