Beautiful Boy

just rewatched Beautiful Boy and it still broke me  it hits even harder the second time because you already know what’s coming, but it doesn’t make it any easier… it just makes everything feel more painful and real the relationship between him and his dad is what destroys me the most. the way his dad keeps trying, keeps hoping, keeps loving him no matter how many times things fall apart… it’s so overwhelming in the quietest way and that moment where his dad even tries the drug just to understand what his son is feeling?? yeah… that part still hurts so much ,it shows how far he’s willing to go just to feel closer to him, even for a second everything feels so raw and repetitive in a way that makes it even more heartbreaking… the hope, the disappointment, the cycle that never seems to end rewatching it just made me appreciate it more, but also hurt more at the same time