Brokeback Mountain

i do wonder that if you are on the precipice of everything you want, and if you have found what people spend years looking for on happenstance to have it taken as soon as it comes if you will spend the time it takes for the synapses to close mourning the future, the image you built up and the fantasy of everything being just is or if you will eventually lose hope of the feeling to return.  this movie is gay but this isnt about that its about the innate humanity of love and strife, the idea that we can have one without the other. i dont know where i am. i just gotta get the fuck out of here merry christmas to me i guess, hope you’re having a good one