Donnie Darko

**My dad had emotional problems. Oh really?! I have those too! What kind of problems did he have? ** I don't even know where to start honestly. Well firstly I'm very very glad that I went to rewatch this. I noticed lately that before I was dumb asf. Well I mean there are just some movies that I didn't watch that carefully and I really regret that. For example the oldboy. I also rewatched it recently and changed my rating from 2.5 to 5, so yeah.. There are some others that I should probably rewatch someday, but Donnie Darko was such a movie as well. I honestly have no idea why I wasn't interested or didn't like the movie last time, since now I couldn't find a singular scene which was boring, but I guess I was just a different person then, even though it's actually not even that long ago, like few months. Anyway this time I also got a chance to watch it in a cinema, that's pretty much the whole reason I went to rewatch it. But yeah, I think the cinema experience might have made an impact on how I loved this movie as well. But it's just the kind of movie where after it ends you just stare at the credits and think. This is genuinely a masterpiece. I find it weird how many people describe this film as if it's very hard to understand. I guess if you don't really watch it carefully you could miss something and get lost and then, sure it probably wouldn't make much sense. That's, because there are tons of scenes that don't seem like they mean much, but in the end you understand how everything connects and that realization leaves you thinking and just remembering everything. I really liked that part, It was like a big plot twist. But yeah now when I watched it everything was very clear to me, so I do find it a bit odd how a lot of people go search up explanations for it after finishing, it's really not that complex.  Well I loved basically everything about it, but there were some scenes that felt really special to me and I really want to say something about them. It's pretty hard to remember everything I wanted to say now, as I was trying to focus on the movie and enjoy it, but I also was trying to remember a few quotes and then a few scenes and my thoughts that I had during them and I kind of got lost now in all those things. However there is one, probably the most important scene to me which I remember very very well and this particular scene has actually interested me even the first time I watched this film, although I don't remember basically anything else about it from my first watch, I did remember this scene quite well. It's about the scale of fear and love. The scene where the teacher asked Donnie to mark a dot where on the scale a scenario falls. And there are many things that you could say about that scene, like for example I don't even think the emotion fear would be the right one if you're trying to make it under two complete different emotions. I'd say something like anger would even make more sense, because at least then love and anger do seem like almost exact opposites and that is an incredibly strong emotion, which can quite literally cost lives. But that's just an observation on how absurd the scale is, however that is nowhere near the actual point. The absurdity of it is way bigger than that. That scene actually felt really satisfying since I agreed with Donnie completely. I actually related to Donnie a lot throughout the whole film, but maybe I will get into that later. I mean that teacher really pissed me off, obviously, but seriously the situation that was given didn't fall anywhere on such scale. There are many many different emotions, exactly as Donnie said. I just love everything he said, that the life isn't that simple, that you cannot just ignore the whole spectrum of human emotions besides these two. And yes if you analyze the situation you could find a lot of emotions that the person might have felt and why he did he make such a decision and so on. But trying to oversimplify things to such extent is absolutely ludicrous. I'm not even talking only about this exact scene with the scale, but everywhere in life, people tend to oversimplify everything. Why? Life isn't simple. Life is complicated, very. And that's just how it is, trying to make a very complex thing simple is impossible and it just won't be the truth. Like let's take an example which I think fits well in this app. I mean there are tons of examples in everyday life. Like literally the whole world. People want it to be simple, to be explainable. That's how such things as religions start. And it's with everything really, everywhere you look, people will make something very interesting, very complex appear simple. They will try to summarize a complex subject in a few words. So that's what I meant by the example about this app. The one liner reviews. Sure it's not an ideal example, because I do understand the reason for them. Some just don't really want to type a long review, some people just don't care enough and some just want to try to be funny. And it's fine if it's just for example something that happened in the film, but there are genuinely people that try to summarize the movie in one sentence. Like saying "this is just bald men and aliens". Now I have no clue what this sentence means, I just completely made it up, but what I mean is that they, by trying to be funny, neglect absolutely everything else the film has to offer and just make it seem simple and cheap. Sure you might call me insufferable for this take, but I don't even hate the one liner. Sometimes I read those reviews and I like them and find some funny, but at the same time it annoys me how you ignore all the other meanings, like it's really interesting and complex, everything is, life is and being to lazy to think about it, so you neglect everything to make it simpler for yourself is such a dumb thing to do. And these are things that I think about frequently so it being shown in a movie and portrayed exactly the same as I believe is really satisfying to see. You could also analyze more about that particular scene as well, for example how the teacher reacting seeing Donnie disagree with her and give a very sensible argument. She doesn't even try to argue, doesn't explain the point of her teaching, she just threatens him.  There were some more scenes that felt really satisfying as being seen as well like in this where my thoughts aligned with what Donnie did. I can't really remember exact scenes now, but that's what I meant by saying that I could relate to Donnie a lot. It sounds a bit insane that the person who is not mentaly stable at all is very relatable. Now that reminds me, that I also found the film Manic very relatable and it's literally about psych ward, so that might be a bit concerning. Thing is though, in both cases I relate to characters about something entirely different, like their thoughts or something. I just think in those mentally unstable characters it's all portrayed a bit better and more clear. Also I just really liked the Donnie Darko character overall. Another scene that I remember which I found interesting is a bit less serious, more funny I guess, but it was where Donnie was talking about smurfs. It felt kind of out of nowhere when he explained to his friends all about them, showing how a lot about the most random things. I'm not really sure what's there to say about this scene, but for some reason I found it very interesting.  Another thing to think about is the therapist. Obviously being a therapist isn't an easy job, but how was she supposed to feel treating someone like that. I genuinely couldn't do that. At first we could see that she was just trying normal things, like asking him about his week, about how things make him feel and then it got to the point where he was flooding school and bring a house down, because of hallucinations. Then talking about killing someone and the world ending, trying to put yourself in her situation and thinking what would you do then is a bit scary. Nothing she has done helped at all and everything just kept getting worse, and she was supposed to "save" him. That is a huge responsibility and a horrible situation to find yourself in.  Also I think this is kind of an unappreciated film. Obviously it's insanely popular and basically everybody knows it, but I feel like not enough people talk about how good it genuinely is. This is one of the best endings I've ever seen in a film. It just connects everything so well and you can sit and think about the whole movie again and realise everything and how different it is now after you watched it all. I see a lot of people talk how if a movie is really good it will keep you staring at the credits for a while and I understood the idea behind it, but always, no matter how many thoughts and feelings I had, I'd still just go write a review or leave the cinema or something, but I think this is the first time where I genuinely was disconnected from the world after finishing it. It really makes you perceive life from a different perspective. So yeah I just love this film a lot, it means so much to me.  Also lately with films like these, especially really good films where I have a lot of thought or feelings I find myself in a dilemma. I see so many things and have so many thoughts that are so incredibly important to me and I really want to share it all, to write it down, but it's just so much and trying to put it all into words, especially after the whole movie, when I've already forgotten like 90% of things that I thought about it makes me want to do nothing with the review. I do not want to write it, because I will feel dissatisfied. I will know that I've left a huge amount of things unsaid. I've said some things in a wrong way and I cannot possibly just put all of my feelings into it. And when I'm just annoyed and don't want to write anything, but also really want to talk about it and I don't know what to do. And even now, it might seem like I've said a lot and yapped about all kind of things, but I've said nothing. I'm extremely dissatisfied with myself for it and that's very annoying.  Also there are some things where I've talked about scenes in detail that could be classified as spoilers I guess, but I won't mark this as a spoiler and I think I will start doing that more in my reviews, because firstly, it's really not a huge spoiler, it's nothing big and second, literally no one is gonna read a long ass review of a film that they're planning on watching. Well and also literally no one reads my long ass reviews in the first place.  Anyway I've obviously left out a lot of things, but point is that I am very very glad that I rewatched this masterpiece and completely changed my mind about it. I'm also very happy that I got the chance to watch it in a cinema, that really added to the experience. Now I'm debating whether I should put this in my top 4 or not though.