Obsession

you're in every song i listen to obsession can be read in many ways. one way i think was pretty powerful was exploring the effects and utter torture of being in a toxic, co-dependency relationship. the constant surveillance and envy, walking on eggshells around someone to avoid any conflict. but it's more than that. i definitely relate to both the characters in strange ways. the heavy level of infatuation 'nikki' feels, the fear of confession and insecurity that bear feels. i've seen a lot of discourse surrounding bear, and it's hard for me to form a cohesive opinion on him truly. the opening scene where he confesses his love, his genuine desire for her but fear to confess - we've all been there. his struggle with loneliness, anxiety and romance is a very real and relatable vulnerability that made me empathise with him a lot. i didn't even really think he was wrong for making the wish; he didn't think it was real, and when the effects kicked in lightly to begin with, how was he to know that it wasn't real? and then, nikki's concious comes to the surface, and she's quietly begging for him to kill her, to put her out of her misery, and he replies 'what's so bad about being with me?'. a pure evil and disgusting reaction to have. from that point forth, he was taking advantage of her, because he knew she was trapped underneath the wish. it was truly heartbreaking to see nikki in such a state. i imagine that the wish willow put her in a similar situation to that of get out's sunken place. the moments where her real self came to the surface were awful, and the moments she was possessed were terrifying. when she was watching him sleep, waiting for him at the door, moving in slow-motion or weirdly over-animated. uncanny, unsettling, even unwatchable at times. and when she awakens at the end, forced to live with the consequences of bear's actions, her friends dead and most likely incredibly traumatised. awful. also, the soundtrack. i love nothing more than when horror films use contrapuntal sound. like in the ending when a beautiful love song plays during a very horrifying moment. sound design in general was really something. the whole film! wonderful. i must rewatch as soon as i can. having a crush be un-bear-able sometimes, lol