Carol

Therese. is. my. age. guys. I sort of feel like im going insane i havent even finished the film yet but i had to stop and write this down because ever since i realised this fact i keep making this horrible facial expression every few minutes whenever it hits me again. Im watching this with completely different eyes than when i first saw it. Like dont get me wrong i completely understand therese. She is me. But im confused. On one hand i wonder what the hell im doing with my life and i think oh god i should be much more responsible and mature than i am right now, look at therese! And on the other hand i look at therese and i see a child and i am a bit disturbed. But at the same time i get it i would be a hypocrite if i said oh nonono carol is too old as if i wouldnt do exactly the same thing as therese. I dont know what i would do actually i am terrified by this realisation and i dont know how to feel. I look at therese and i see myself and this completely fucks with my head. I think maybe im either jealous or i just realised how old i actually am. I literally watch this film every year and ive only just clocked this now. Maybe because rooney mara was 30 when this film came out.