Thunderbolts*

i am so very thankful for this movie as the storyline is beautifully written, the cinematography is delectable, and the chemistry between characters bringing everything to life felt so refreshing.  this movie is lulling you into a deep nostalgia that’s seemingly comforting and inviting, while highlighting the true dangers of indulging that void. with reoccurring melancholy through the parallels to the avengers (2012), i was bawling my eyes out while i heavily clung to the character of yelena belova. my favorite character in the comics when i was a wee babe, to now being my favorite in the mcu, it felt as if i was faced with my younger self and our growth through the years. it’s safe to say i feel as if i can relate to her in some way. the avengers (2012) is a film that my dad and i obsess over, to the point i can quote it word for word, so there’s a personal connection there with all the parallels! just like yelena, i miss my dad too (he’s alive, we just live in different states).  my dad is the first person i go to whenever i’m really struggling with mental health, similar in ways yelena experiences in the film, and i’ve expressed to him how much i love this movie because it reminds me of him, of us, and how genuinely great it is to have a beautiful piece on mental health be presented this way.  my dad said he’s saving his first watch of this movie for when i visit him, so that’ll be a whole new experience of a deep sob session during “daddy i’m so alone.”