Novitiate

and just like Grunkle Stan once said: It's just like my life!... in a way. I would have NEVER expected this film to hit me as hard as it did. I'm not a lesbian, I'm not even a woman, and much less a nun, but this film's exploration of self-sacrifice and the search for fullfillment in a world that seems to be completely empty is nothing less than masterful. I adore Margaret Qualley's performance, there is something so subtle yet captivating about her character which is also very interesting right from how it's written, I'm absolutely obsessed with her. But I'm even more obsessed with the Reverend Mother. It's just a mind-blowingly perfectly written and performed character to such an extent that it's truly both the most despicable character I've ever seen and at the same time I still very much feel a very dim but existent pity for her, an understanding of a character whose whole life they've constructed is slowly fading right in front of them. And how both these characters truly mirror each other despite their differences is such a good statement to how personally and strongly its topics are explored. How can you ever be fulfilled in a essentially unfulfilling society? How can you feel loved if for it you have to sacrifice all of yourself? What do you do if neither comfort nor penance is right? And what are you going to do if everything you've sacrificed yourself for is ultimately meaningless? New film for my top 4, I love it so much. This one goes for all the bad bitches with religious trauma out there #twin