Aftersun

finally had the guts to rewatch this. i couldn’t explain what i was feeling the first time i’ve seen this film and i still freeze at the mere thought of trying to explain, especially when my friends ask what this film is about. i still get that same knot feeling in my chest. but i think what i can say now is that experiencing and watching a snippet of someone’s life, their complicated feelings and turbulent thoughts at a very specific moment, their hidden pain. and you see it all through someone else’s memory, someone who loves them deeply. it is almost too ureal to process. and when it’s all over, it’s heartbreaking to be left not knowing what comes after. and yeah.. i’m crying as i typed this