Beginners

I'm not sure I was made to love. I'm painfully unable to connect in meaningful ways and too deep into my head, believing I am unlovable and unwanted. As relationships fail, I feel my negative self-perceptions validated. Is it that my self-loathing is right, or do I will it to be so? Am I truly a lost cause so vile and worthless that I don't deserve to be loved, or do my own thoughts condemn me to a place where those brutal and dark thoughts become true.  This movie pulls so much out and reminds you its always the right time to begin even with years of pain and worn paths you are still a beginner. Also the slides shows on black have a feeling like nothing else.