Aftersun

As much as stuff has gone in my life and how my Father was an amazing man who had difficulties when coming to drinking, this film has never made me feel such a way. Putting what I am feeling into words right now is extremely hard, I doubt as well once I clear away the tears and put myself back into gear I won't be able to not understand the array of emotions this film can have. I originally went into this thinking I would cry but not think about my past, present, and future and the impact I will now look at on life. I am so grateful for what has happened in current years with certain topics I will not bore anyone with and how I no longer live with my mother or father. Whilst my dad was a man with his many hamartias, I can still recall that he was full of joy and incredible life in my earlier years that I so miss. I had found and seen his weaknesses later on in life but never thought any less of him as he was my one and true idol in his optimistic outlook on life and he could see comedy and beauty in anything. That was the core thing I loved about him and now after watching this film with not a care on my life and instead on focusing on my current and future academic career. I look back now with great appreciation for my father and how he cared for me how he truly and deeply loved me doing his best whilst others slandered him for being a terrible man and father. Dad I love you xx