Repulsion

im more scared that i found carol and her way of living relatable, the point of no return so strangely familiar. one of my favorite parts of the film is its use of sound and the way it explains why carol got insane: she never had peace, even though the film is mostly followed by silence. men never leave her. even when her sister and her boyfriend leave for vacation, she still hears sounds of their sex at nights, also she hallucinates of men harassing her, which also pressures her androphobia, and even after all that, the peace never comes: she begins to hallucinate the walls cracking.  carol never got a moment of calmness, even in the solitude of apartment, her 'boyfriend' invades it. and with the 'solution' of killing him, the problemdoesn't end: it gets worse. nightmares of hands groping and reaching for her in corridor follow carol. next, the landlord tries to rape her, and after killing him too, with the hallucinations worsening, carol starts to accept that there's no end: when she tries to resist to another hallucination of harassment by turning on light (the way children escape their nightmares) it doesn't work. the second time in the corridor full of hands, she doesn't resist. and on top of that, even if she hadn't completely given into the madness, her 'reward' for suffering (like the way people used to interpret bible: a person must suffer to reach paradise) wouldn't come, her sister and her boyfriend still would return, and carol would still hear their sex, she would still feel the pressure of men, the hallucinations would still haunt her. i love catherine deneuve and how she portrayed carol, and hate the fact that off all people roman polanski made this film