i have a hard time rewatching this because i see so much of my younger self in gabe that it makes me feel sick. this is the most seen i’ve ever felt in a movie, i’ve never seen my own personal relationship with mental illness on screen at this capacity before; it’s always either sugarcoated, romanticized, or simply so far from being accurate that it’s laughable. with the obsession, the ‘squeezing’, repeated muttering, jittery body language, deep frustrations, and what i could only describe as the hand thing, rory did such an amazing job portraying this character, i hope he takes on more roles like this in the future (or any role, really. rory i miss you please find a job).
one scene in particular really struck a chord with me was when gabe and his nonny enter the dining room after his blowout and everyone at the table immediately tenses up, stares, and stops talking; you can see how alienated he feels just by the look on his face when his mother hugs him, and it’s even furthered when he’s trying to apologize and explain himself to kelly. i’ve been in similar situations, it almost felt like i was reliving it through someone else’s perspective, and for some reason that hurt more.
despite how hard it is for me to watch this, my emotional connection to it runs so deep. it’ll forever be a favourite of mine. such an underrated gem of a film, so gut wrenching in every sense of the word.
i have a hard time rewatching this because i see so much of my younger self in gabe that it makes me feel sick. this is the most seen i’ve ever felt in a movie, i’ve never seen my own personal relationship with mental illness on screen at this capacity before; it’s always either sugarcoated, romanticized, or simply so far from being accurate that it’s laughable. with the obsession, the ‘squeezing’, repeated muttering, jittery body language, deep frustrations, and what i could only describe as the hand thing, rory did such an amazing job portraying this character, i hope he takes on more roles like this in the future (or any role, really. rory i miss you please find a job).
one scene in particular really struck a chord with me was when gabe and his nonny enter the dining room after his blowout and everyone at the table immediately tenses up, stares, and stops talking; you can see how alienated he feels just by the look on his face when his mother hugs him, and it’s even furthered when he’s trying to apologize and explain himself to kelly. i’ve been in similar situations, it almost felt like i was reliving it through someone else’s perspective, and for some reason that hurt more.
despite how hard it is for me to watch this, my emotional connection to it runs so deep. it’ll forever be a favourite of mine. such an underrated gem of a film, so gut wrenching in every sense of the word.
