“Comedy” are you fuvking kidding me this is the most sobbing, crying, weeping, shedding tears, wailing, bawling, sniveling, grieving, mourning, tearing up, sorrowing, blubbering, teary, shrieking, ringing, roaring, booming, bitter, melancholy, somber, depressing, miserable, vomiting, squeamish, nauseous, queasy, repulsed, manic, insane, frenzied, demented, deranged, psychotic, rabid, crazed, delirious, erratic, maniacal, unhinged film i ever seen

“Comedy” are you fuvking kidding me this is the most sobbing, crying, weeping, shedding tears, wailing, bawling, sniveling, grieving, mourning, tearing up, sorrowing, blubbering, teary, shrieking, ringing, roaring, booming, bitter, melancholy, somber, depressing, miserable, vomiting, squeamish, nauseous, queasy, repulsed, manic, insane, frenzied, demented, deranged, psychotic, rabid, crazed, delirious, erratic, maniacal, unhinged film i ever seen

“Next thing I knew, I was singing.”🧚🫧

“Next thing I knew, I was singing.”🧚🫧

Memories of Matsuko is one of those movies that I genuinely don’t even know how to explain properly without feeling like I’m underselling it. It’s exaggerated, colorful, uncomfortable, ridiculous, beautiful, and completely devastating at the same time. The whole movie feels like a bright, happy musical on the surface, but emotionally it’s absolutely rotten underneath. And honestly, that’s exactly what makes it so special.
Matsuko is probably the kind of character that would annoy or frustrate a lot of people because she never stops making terrible decisions, but for me that was the most human part of the entire movie. She’s not the typical “strong” character who learns quickly and moves on with her life; she just wants somebody to love her, even a little, and she slowly destroys herself trying to get that. There’s something painfully real about watching someone accept humiliation after humiliation just because they’re terrified of being alone. It’s frustrating because you want her to wake up and leave, but at the same time you completely understand why she can’t.
The movie says so much about loneliness, validation, and emotional dependency, but it does it in such an extreme and theatrical way that it almost feels surreal. The more her life falls apart, the more desperately she keeps trying to convince herself that loving people is still worth it. And somehow that becomes the saddest thing about her, because Matsuko was never really a bad person. She was just someone who was unbelievably lonely.
I also loved how the movie never loses its colorful and almost childish aesthetic even during the darkest moments. Usually when movies want to feel depressing, they become gray and serious, but this film does the complete opposite. Everything is full of music, bright colors, absurd humor, and chaotic energy, yet somehow it only keeps feeling emptier and emptier. That contrast makes the emotional moments hit even harder because it feels like the entire world is trying to pretend everything is fine when it clearly isn’t.
I think a lot of people see this movie as just endless suffering, but to me it felt more like a story about someone slowly losing themselves because their entire self-worth depends on being loved by other people. Matsuko changes herself completely depending on who she’s with because she genuinely doesn’t know who she is without somebody else validating her existence. And honestly, that’s an incredibly uncomfortable and human thing to watch.
There were so many scenes that stayed in my head because the movie has this really strange ability to make you feel warmth and sadness at the exact same time. One second you’re laughing because of how absurd everything feels, and then suddenly you feel horrible for her again. Very few movies can balance that without feeling forced.
Another thing I loved is that the movie never tries too hard to look “deep” or intellectual while talking about heavy themes. It’s extremely emotional, dramatic, loud, vulnerable, and unapologetic about it. The movie basically screams every emotion directly at you, and somehow that made it feel even more honest to me. It feels less like watching a fictional character and more like watching someone desperately beg to be loved for their entire life until there’s almost nothing left of them.
And honestly, the ending completely destroyed me. Not because it was shocking in a cheap way, but because after seeing everything Matsuko went through, you realize she was always searching for something painfully simple: to feel genuinely loved at least once in her life. And the worst part is that throughout the movie it constantly feels like happiness is almost within her reach, but she always loses it because of fear, dependency, or just life continuing to crush her over and over again.
It’s painful, chaotic, frustrating, excessive, and emotionally exhausting, but that’s exactly why I loved it so much. Matsuko honestly feels like one of the most human characters I’ve seen in a very long time. Not because she’s perfect, but because she’s completely broken and still keeps searching for love until the very end.

Memories of Matsuko is one of those movies that I genuinely don’t even know how to explain properly without feeling like I’m underselling it. It’s exaggerated, colorful, uncomfortable, ridiculous, beautiful, and completely devastating at the same time. The whole movie feels like a bright, happy musical on the surface, but emotionally it’s absolutely rotten underneath. And honestly, that’s exactly what makes it so special.
Matsuko is probably the kind of character that would annoy or frustrate a lot of people because she never stops making terrible decisions, but for me that was the most human part of the entire movie. She’s not the typical “strong” character who learns quickly and moves on with her life; she just wants somebody to love her, even a little, and she slowly destroys herself trying to get that. There’s something painfully real about watching someone accept humiliation after humiliation just because they’re terrified of being alone. It’s frustrating because you want her to wake up and leave, but at the same time you completely understand why she can’t.
The movie says so much about loneliness, validation, and emotional dependency, but it does it in such an extreme and theatrical way that it almost feels surreal. The more her life falls apart, the more desperately she keeps trying to convince herself that loving people is still worth it. And somehow that becomes the saddest thing about her, because Matsuko was never really a bad person. She was just someone who was unbelievably lonely.
I also loved how the movie never loses its colorful and almost childish aesthetic even during the darkest moments. Usually when movies want to feel depressing, they become gray and serious, but this film does the complete opposite. Everything is full of music, bright colors, absurd humor, and chaotic energy, yet somehow it only keeps feeling emptier and emptier. That contrast makes the emotional moments hit even harder because it feels like the entire world is trying to pretend everything is fine when it clearly isn’t.
I think a lot of people see this movie as just endless suffering, but to me it felt more like a story about someone slowly losing themselves because their entire self-worth depends on being loved by other people. Matsuko changes herself completely depending on who she’s with because she genuinely doesn’t know who she is without somebody else validating her existence. And honestly, that’s an incredibly uncomfortable and human thing to watch.
There were so many scenes that stayed in my head because the movie has this really strange ability to make you feel warmth and sadness at the exact same time. One second you’re laughing because of how absurd everything feels, and then suddenly you feel horrible for her again. Very few movies can balance that without feeling forced.
Another thing I loved is that the movie never tries too hard to look “deep” or intellectual while talking about heavy themes. It’s extremely emotional, dramatic, loud, vulnerable, and unapologetic about it. The movie basically screams every emotion directly at you, and somehow that made it feel even more honest to me. It feels less like watching a fictional character and more like watching someone desperately beg to be loved for their entire life until there’s almost nothing left of them.
And honestly, the ending completely destroyed me. Not because it was shocking in a cheap way, but because after seeing everything Matsuko went through, you realize she was always searching for something painfully simple: to feel genuinely loved at least once in her life. And the worst part is that throughout the movie it constantly feels like happiness is almost within her reach, but she always loses it because of fear, dependency, or just life continuing to crush her over and over again.
It’s painful, chaotic, frustrating, excessive, and emotionally exhausting, but that’s exactly why I loved it so much. Matsuko honestly feels like one of the most human characters I’ve seen in a very long time. Not because she’s perfect, but because she’s completely broken and still keeps searching for love until the very end.

matsuko’s clownery just to impress her father from the very beginning of her life reminded me so much of yozo from “no longer human.” i honestly think there’s a bit of dazai in this film, which is funny bcos he gets mentioned later on when her abusive ex-bf believes he’s dazai’s reincarnation. when in reality, matsuko was the one who would’ve understood him better. 

and yet, she remained gentle and full of love throughout her years. with gritted teeth and teary eyes, she gave everything she had. even if her decisions were not always the best. she was simply too late to realize what she needed all along.

there’s a quote from dazai’s short novel “schoolgirl” that says, “you wait and wait for happiness, and when you can’t bear it any longer, you rush out of the house, only to hear later that a marvelous happiness arrived the following day at the home you had abandoned, and now it was too late. sometimes happiness arrives one night too late.”

matsuko’s life was painful, so it should feel painful in the end. but when the camera pans out to that vast greenery by the river, u begin to see her life filled with stories. she was a good teacher, she sang beautifully, she was an understanding friend, and her younger sister loved her very much. her life wasn’t meaningless after all.

on another note, this film had one of the best opening and ending sequences i’ve seen since eeaao. vibrant, funny, and painful. namaga mata ko don?! tho if there’s one thing i didn’t like, it’s the whole err with much younger ppl. idk medyo gets, but some parts still felt weird and uncomfortable to me.

matsuko’s clownery just to impress her father from the very beginning of her life reminded me so much of yozo from “no longer human.” i honestly think there’s a bit of dazai in this film, which is funny bcos he gets mentioned later on when her abusive ex-bf believes he’s dazai’s reincarnation. when in reality, matsuko was the one who would’ve understood him better. 

and yet, she remained gentle and full of love throughout her years. with gritted teeth and teary eyes, she gave everything she had. even if her decisions were not always the best. she was simply too late to realize what she needed all along.

there’s a quote from dazai’s short novel “schoolgirl” that says, “you wait and wait for happiness, and when you can’t bear it any longer, you rush out of the house, only to hear later that a marvelous happiness arrived the following day at the home you had abandoned, and now it was too late. sometimes happiness arrives one night too late.”

matsuko’s life was painful, so it should feel painful in the end. but when the camera pans out to that vast greenery by the river, u begin to see her life filled with stories. she was a good teacher, she sang beautifully, she was an understanding friend, and her younger sister loved her very much. her life wasn’t meaningless after all.

on another note, this film had one of the best opening and ending sequences i’ve seen since eeaao. vibrant, funny, and painful. namaga mata ko don?! tho if there’s one thing i didn’t like, it’s the whole err with much younger ppl. idk medyo gets, but some parts still felt weird and uncomfortable to me.

I don’t usually give out a 5 stars on the first watch, but man was this something special.

I don’t usually give out a 5 stars on the first watch, but man was this something special.