Transferring

i see kawanos awkwardness in me

i see kawanos awkwardness in me

curtinho mas ainda sim muito bom. foi uma ótima experiência, dito isso, vou indo nessa. não me siga! ou melhor, ついてくんなよ!

curtinho mas ainda sim muito bom. foi uma ótima experiência, dito isso, vou indo nessa. não me siga! ou melhor, ついてくんなよ!

The follower craves to be followed, but rejects every opportunity with “Don’t follow me.” We need someone who would wait for us to tie our shoelaces. We shut our doors to people, but we are not heartless. We would wait for the other to finish their novel before seeing its movie adaptation in the theater together. 

Truly, we are the ones who are the most capable of love. We protect it because our hearts are too full. Swollen hearts are the most vulnerable to eruption. Risa’s heart bursts when she gives in to her desire in exposing herself to Yoko, her only friend and follower in her new school. She shows a push and pull dynamic because she denies herself a fleeting friendship before she transfers schools again. Is it really worth risking your peace for another attachment? But what about the beauty that comes with your once-in-a-lifetime friendship? Today is your only chance before you move on to the future in the blink of an eye. 


This reminds me of a few quotes by Ocean Vuong:

“Because the sunset, like survival, exists only on the verge of its own disappearing. To be gorgeous, you must first be seen, but to be seen allows you to be hunted.“

“I want to love more than death can harm. And I want to tell you this often: That despite being so human and so terrified, here, standing on this unfinished staircase to nowhere and everywhere, surrounded by the cold and starless night—we can live. And we will.”

The follower craves to be followed, but rejects every opportunity with “Don’t follow me.” We need someone who would wait for us to tie our shoelaces. We shut our doors to people, but we are not heartless. We would wait for the other to finish their novel before seeing its movie adaptation in the theater together. 

Truly, we are the ones who are the most capable of love. We protect it because our hearts are too full. Swollen hearts are the most vulnerable to eruption. Risa’s heart bursts when she gives in to her desire in exposing herself to Yoko, her only friend and follower in her new school. She shows a push and pull dynamic because she denies herself a fleeting friendship before she transfers schools again. Is it really worth risking your peace for another attachment? But what about the beauty that comes with your once-in-a-lifetime friendship? Today is your only chance before you move on to the future in the blink of an eye. 


This reminds me of a few quotes by Ocean Vuong:

“Because the sunset, like survival, exists only on the verge of its own disappearing. To be gorgeous, you must first be seen, but to be seen allows you to be hunted.“

“I want to love more than death can harm. And I want to tell you this often: That despite being so human and so terrified, here, standing on this unfinished staircase to nowhere and everywhere, surrounded by the cold and starless night—we can live. And we will.”