THIS WAS INSANE.
I decided to watch this movie after finishing “The Apology” by Eve Ensler, one of the hardest and most emotionally intense books to read and process, as they both revolve around the same theme of abuse.
Eve Ensler was also sexually abused by her father. And here, the movie is based on the director’s real life, where she was sexually abused by her coach
I honestly don’t know what it took for these two women to be that strong, to go back to one of the most devastating experiences of their lives and turn it into something like this. I can’t even imagine how hard it must’ve been. The movie was so difficult to watch that I had to pause every now and then because I genuinely couldn’t handle the shit happening. And the book was just as heavy in its own way..
What makes it even more insane is that both of them didn’t get the apology they deserved, which is simple as fuck, yet so unreachable. But somehow, both of them still found their own way to heal. Eve Ensler does it by writing the apology she never received, and Jennifer Fox does it by confronting and reprocessing her own story through the film.
And in both cases, the abusers follow the same psychological pattern, catching their vulnerability, manipulating it, and making themselves seem like the “hero” in their lives, as if without them the girls would be nothing. a typical abuser mindset at its core control through emotional dependency, making the victim feel special while slowly breaking their boundaries.
The movie’s timeline reflects the healing process perfectly. The complex narrative, with its nonlinear structure, the flashbacks, the shifting ages, memories fading, shifting, and rewriting themselves as the story progresses, all feel intentionally chaotic, like a mind trying to make sense of something. Everything feels messy in a way that mirrors her mental state.
And maybe the hardest thought of all is how many people go through this… and never get to the point of understanding it, or even speaking about it?
Some people are still stuck in that “it was normal” version of the story.
That’s what makes what these women did almost unbelievable.
To go back, face it, name it, and then create something out of it…
I don’t even know what kind of strength that takes.
THIS WAS INSANE.
I decided to watch this movie after finishing “The Apology” by Eve Ensler, one of the hardest and most emotionally intense books to read and process, as they both revolve around the same theme of abuse.
Eve Ensler was also sexually abused by her father. And here, the movie is based on the director’s real life, where she was sexually abused by her coach
I honestly don’t know what it took for these two women to be that strong, to go back to one of the most devastating experiences of their lives and turn it into something like this. I can’t even imagine how hard it must’ve been. The movie was so difficult to watch that I had to pause every now and then because I genuinely couldn’t handle the shit happening. And the book was just as heavy in its own way..
What makes it even more insane is that both of them didn’t get the apology they deserved, which is simple as fuck, yet so unreachable. But somehow, both of them still found their own way to heal. Eve Ensler does it by writing the apology she never received, and Jennifer Fox does it by confronting and reprocessing her own story through the film.
And in both cases, the abusers follow the same psychological pattern, catching their vulnerability, manipulating it, and making themselves seem like the “hero” in their lives, as if without them the girls would be nothing. a typical abuser mindset at its core control through emotional dependency, making the victim feel special while slowly breaking their boundaries.
The movie’s timeline reflects the healing process perfectly. The complex narrative, with its nonlinear structure, the flashbacks, the shifting ages, memories fading, shifting, and rewriting themselves as the story progresses, all feel intentionally chaotic, like a mind trying to make sense of something. Everything feels messy in a way that mirrors her mental state.
And maybe the hardest thought of all is how many people go through this… and never get to the point of understanding it, or even speaking about it?
Some people are still stuck in that “it was normal” version of the story.
That’s what makes what these women did almost unbelievable.
To go back, face it, name it, and then create something out of it…
I don’t even know what kind of strength that takes.
