“I used to make up long speeches to you after you left. I used to talk to you all the time, even though I was alone. I walked around for months talking to you. Now I don’t know what to say. It was easier when I just imagined you. I even imagined you talking back to me. We’d have long conversations, the two of us. It was almost like you were there. I could hear you, I could see you, smell you. I could hear your voice. Sometimes your voice would wake me up. It would wake me up in the middle of the night, just like you were there in the room with me. Then it slowly faded. I couldn’t picture you anymore. I tried to talk out loud to you, but there was nothing there. I couldn’t hear you. Then I just gave up. Everything stopped. You just disappeared. Now I’m working here. I hear your voice all the time. Every man has your voice.”Sorry for the long quote and heads up, this is going to be an equally long review.
For some reason I feel deeply connected to this film. I recall seeing the scene where Travis and Hunter try finding Jane, and they follow her with their car, back when I was a little kid, on the TV. My dad was watching Paris, Texas. I always tried to remember what film it was, that I saw that day.
My parents broke up and my mom had a new boyfriend. I remember him trying very hard to make me laugh, or even just smile. It’s been very long and they’re married now. I feel like I also have two fathers. One being the one I’ve known since birth and the other being my stepdad. Kind of like in this film, just the other way around. I feel like I can kind of relate to Hunter on one level. Having a new father figure enter your life so abruptly. I know it’s different in this, but I still feel like I can relate to it. Seeing this film, the scene where Travis and Hunter walk up the street and Travis tries to make his son smile, made me very emotional, for some reason. I rarely cry during films but the scene, that I quoted at the top, really made my eyes extremely watery. I think this film was probably one of the most beautiful films I have ever seen. I didn’t want it to end, even though it was already very long. I enjoyed every second of it. Watching this felt like releasing something I had unknowingly been holding onto.
Not sure if that makes any sense haha.
