There are certain 'important' directors who's work I always enter with a level of excitement whether its to: "change my perspective on art/cinema" to "change me as a person," etc., HHH is one of those filmmakers. I slowly started making my way through his films, starting with Millennium Mambo, and felt these extreme waves of emotion, that hit me like a truck at the very beginning of the film; but I started slowly drifting away and eventually lost the feeling I had initially felt. The same goes for Tropical Malady as well as the other HHH films I've seen (The Assassin, Goodbye South Goodbye).
I always tend to hit some sort of wall and ask myself, is this what I'm supposed to be feeling? And you might say that's a stupid question to ask but it’s true. There are other filmmakers I've hit this wall with, to name a few: Weerasethakul, Brakhage, Snow, Straub/Huillet, Lynch, Kieslowski, Tarkovsky. There are probably numerous others I'm forgetting, but the main point I'm trying to get across is that I tend to doubt myself, looking for something that might not even exist within these films, and when I don't find said thing, I'm left completely dumbfounded. With HHH, I found myself hyper-analyzing and searching for something completely out of reach, but with Daughter of the Nile, I chose not to speak with it, but to let it speak with me
Its bizarre thinking of myself as someone "new" to film who started watching movies consistently a little more than 2 years ago; and to be completely honest, these past two years have been some of the most exciting and transformative years of my life, seeing myself morph into the art that I resonate with, and learning more about the world as I continue move forward. 20 might be a scary number for me, coming up in June, and as terrifying as it is moving into the more independent years of my life, I could not be more excited for the future
There are certain 'important' directors who's work I always enter with a level of excitement whether its to: "change my perspective on art/cinema" to "change me as a person," etc., HHH is one of those filmmakers. I slowly started making my way through his films, starting with Millennium Mambo, and felt these extreme waves of emotion, that hit me like a truck at the very beginning of the film; but I started slowly drifting away and eventually lost the feeling I had initially felt. The same goes for Tropical Malady as well as the other HHH films I've seen (The Assassin, Goodbye South Goodbye).
I always tend to hit some sort of wall and ask myself, is this what I'm supposed to be feeling? And you might say that's a stupid question to ask but it’s true. There are other filmmakers I've hit this wall with, to name a few: Weerasethakul, Brakhage, Snow, Straub/Huillet, Lynch, Kieslowski, Tarkovsky. There are probably numerous others I'm forgetting, but the main point I'm trying to get across is that I tend to doubt myself, looking for something that might not even exist within these films, and when I don't find said thing, I'm left completely dumbfounded. With HHH, I found myself hyper-analyzing and searching for something completely out of reach, but with Daughter of the Nile, I chose not to speak with it, but to let it speak with me
Its bizarre thinking of myself as someone "new" to film who started watching movies consistently a little more than 2 years ago; and to be completely honest, these past two years have been some of the most exciting and transformative years of my life, seeing myself morph into the art that I resonate with, and learning more about the world as I continue move forward. 20 might be a scary number for me, coming up in June, and as terrifying as it is moving into the more independent years of my life, I could not be more excited for the future