“you were my great, consuming love”I don’t even know how to begin this without admitting that I’m currently sitting here, completely undone, still sobbing as I try to gather my thoughts. like guys i’m actually ugly crying right now.
Tim and Hawk’s story has changed me in a way I didn’t expect. It’s the kind of love that feels both impossibly vast and painfully fragile, stretching across decades yet constantly at the mercy of a world that never made space for it. Watching them felt like holding something beautiful that you already know will break.
There’s a fullness in my chest that I can’t quite describe, like I’ve been filled to the brim with love, grief, longing, and anger all at once. And i’m so fucking grateful for it. so grateful I have gotten to experience this.
What hurts the most is knowing this isn’t just fiction. It’s history. It’s real lives. Real people who loved like this and lost like this. I find myself grieving not just for Tim and Hawk, but for every victim of queer violence, for every life cut short by AIDS, for every love story that never got the chance to exist out in the open. The show doesn’t let you look away from that, and I deeply thank it for it.
And the way it’s told… GOD. The cinematography is breathtaking, every frame feels deliberate, intimate, almost sacred. The lighting carries emotion in a way words sometimes can’t, soft and warm in moments of love, stark and unforgiving in moments of loss. And the music UGH. the silence. the way sound is used to let certain moments linger just a second longer than you’re ready for. it’s devastating in the most beautiful way.
+ the characterisation of tim and hawk is UGHHH. their chemistry is off the charts, and hawk is so beautifully complex. you don’t like him as a person, but you never fully hate him for any of the decisions he makes.
This show fucking broke me. Broke me in half and I don’t know if I am ever going to recover, but somehow, in doing so, it reminds you of the immense, resilient power of love.
even when the world tries to erase it.
10/10 WOULD recommend but you might not recover