Brokeback Mountain
“can’t believe I left my damn shirt out there.”the shirt seemed heavy until he saw there was another shirt inside it. It was his own plaid shirt, stolen by jack and hidden inside jack’s own shirt. the pair like two skins, one inside the other. two in one.
I hate you I hate this movie and I hate myself for rewatching it.
Isn’t this such a sweet movie, I mean obviously against the fact they can’t love each other openly, at least they can still see each other whenever they want! hey… why’s there still 20 minutes left…
I would never wish this on my worst enemy. this movie always causes me so much pain yet it is my most watched movie—and dare I say favourite. I have so much to say about this movie, yet I don’t have the words to explain it properly.
twenty years. twenty fucking years. jack twist you are stronger than me I would’ve killed myself.
I will never shut up about this movie, I’m the woke friend. this movie has a grasp on me no other movie ever will. I think about ennis all the time, the fear he must’ve felt and how he was too scared to show his love for jack—whilst all jack wanted to do was show ennis his love, ultimately resulting in his death. they never got to love each other freely, they never got to love each other without fear.
“tell you what. the truth is, sometimes I miss you so much I can hardly stand it.”
“there’s never enough time. never enough.”
“tell you what, we could’ve had a good life together. fucking real good life. had us a place of our own. but you didn’t want it ennis. so what we got now is brokeback mountain.”
“I wish I knew how to quit you.”
jake gyllenhaals acting in this scene is genuinely so beautiful, jacks monologue hurts me every time I hear it or even think about it, and the fact I have it memorised doesn’t help. but what’s hurts so much more is ennis’ response.
“why don’t you? why don’t you just let me be, huh? it’s cause of you, jack, that I’m like this. I’m nothing. I’m nowhere.”
“I can’t stand this anymore, jack.”
oh heath ledger you will always be famous to me.
the cinematography of this movie is so beautiful, the story is tragic, and the acting feels so real, I used to be bored whilst watching the first 30 minutes, but truly I’m not anymore—we watch them get to know each other and truly that makes it so much more tragic.
I genuinely feel sick to my stomach whenever I think about how jack died proving ennis right, proving to him that he could never love anyone freely or without fear, jack died the way ennis feared.
“two guys living together? no way.”
I will never shut up about how they were nineteen when they first met, I will never get over that. jack was only thirty-nine when he died. jack spent more than half of his life loving ennis, ennis spent the rest of his loving jack.
“he was only thirty-nine years old.”
“he used to say he wanted his ashes scattered on brokeback mountain.”—“well, he said it was his favourite place.”
I love anne hathaways acting in this scene, to me that scene was one of the most impactful but not because we find our jack is dead but the way anne hathaway plays lureen, in an interview she says they filmed two versions of lureen and ennis talking over the phone, one where she knew, one where she didn’t, but we don’t know if she knew as they used scenes from both.
every actor in this movie portrays their character so well, all the characters feel so real.
I hate people who say ennis isn’t a good person, I understand that he wasn’t the best husband nor father but he wasn’t a bad person, just a repressed and scared one, and honestly he wasn’t the worst father either, but definitely not the best. you can see the amount of love he has for his children, and the amount of love they have for him.
“you ever get the feeling, I don’t know, when you’re in town and someone looks at you, suspicious, like he knows. then you go out on the pavement and everyone’s looking at you like they all know too.”
this is one of the scenes that truly shows ennis’ fear, the way he asks jack if he ever feels that way, or if lureen ever suspects anything, to which jack replies with no.
also, the way ennis finds his and jacks shirts intertwined, jacks shirt on the outside, then when we next see the shirts—hung up in ennis’ closet, with the postcard, ennis’ shirt is now the one on the outside.
“jack I swear.”
you just called me a slur, stomped on me, spat on me and literally killed me. I can’t believe that they would ever include this absolutely gut wrenching and heart breaking scene, makes me sick to my stomach. fucking wedding vows, are you kidding me. ennis wanted jack more than he ever did after his death, he had realised how much he wanted him all along, but now he couldn’t have him.