Brokeback Mountain
"tell you what... the truth is... sometimes I miss you so much I can hardly stand it."
last day of pride month, you KNOW what I had to watch. god, the pain and anguish this movie brings to me is genuinely unbearable. I love this movie so much I talk about it to anyone and everyone. movie recommendation? brokeback mountain.
It's not even my favourite movie, I genuinely just have such a profound love for this movie, it's so meaningful and beautiful, the cinematography is so gorgeous, if any movie has ever made me want to be a director more than ever, it's this one.
this movie never fails to make me sob; full-on, genuine sobs. I don't know why I have subjected myself to rewatching it yet again.
the regret and shame on ennis' face. AUGGHHH, I cannot STAND this movie, god I hate when actors are good at their jobs because this movie feels so disgustingly and disturbingly real to me, it is so perfect it captures queer guilt and shines a light on it from two different perspectives.
"If you can't fix it, jack, you gotta stand it."
"I just can't stand this anymore, jack."
oh ennis del mar. you will never fail to, with the utmost precision, remove my internal organs, then mix them around, rip them apart, and then try and find the place in which they once fit. every time I watch this movie, I genuinely wish I were dead at least 10% more than the last time.
ennis is such a beautiful yet tragic character, he is such a good example of "good person who does bad things."
even though I have watched this movie so many times, it will NEVER fail to surprise me. I get so encapsulated with the emotions throughout this movie that I genuinely forget what happens; it's almost as if I'm experiencing their emotions with them.
to be loved is to be seen? to be loved is to be absolutely crash tackled and attacked by the person of whom you love and adore the most, getting your nose absolutely punched in by them, I mean wow.
"can't believe I left my damn shirt out there."
no, I am never ever getting over the shirt, ever. I mean jack taking the shirt with him, putting his own shirt over it, and then ennis finding it after jacks death, taking it with him; AND THEN SWITCHING THE SHIRTS SO THAT ENNIS' IS ON THE OUTSIDE INSTEAD? I was just shot.
jack was always chasing ennis, he wanted to be with him, truly and fully. ennis only began chasing him when it was far too late, when the realisation of what could've been and the weight of what he lost, of what he once had, finally hit him.
It's so easy to forget about alma and lureen, until you see them, I feel like they are the most left out in this movie, they are such beautifully written and tragic characters, while we are watching the movie from moreso jack and ennis' perspective, we feel the guilt that they are feeling. but it's so easy to forget the deep and raw emotions put into every character.
"you have no idea how bad it gets! I'm not you... I can't make it on a coupla high-altitude fucks once or twice a year! you are too much for me ennis, you sonofawhoreson bitch! I wish I knew how to quit you!"
"well, why don't you? why don't you just let me be? It's because of you jack, that I'm like this! I'm nothin'... I'm nowhere..."
also, I love how you can see both of their marriages basically fading, losing what once was because of the realisation that they could never love a woman as much as they love each other, yet it happens so differently, lureen and jack genuinely just don't communicate, it's not like they hate each other, they just don;t talk unless its important, ennis and alma on the other hand begin to hate each other; ultimately resulting in their divorce, and in this situation, its implied both lureen and alma knew about jack and ennis, but only alma acted.
"jack twist? jack nasty."
"he always said he wanted his ashes scattered on brokeback mountain, but I wasn't sure where that was. I thought brokeback mountain might be around where he grew up. knowing jack, it was probably some pretend place, where bluebirds sing and there's a whiskey spring..."
these two quotes are such great examples of what I stated before about their marriages dwindling overtime, but differently, alma takes it out on jack, lureen doesn't know much about jack's life at all.
whenever jack or ennis cry in this movie, I genuinely start tweaking out, ripping my hair out, even, specifically ennis with that scene after they both first left, brokeback, and jack when he's leaving from visiting tennis after hearing about his divorce. oh my god. also, I agree with you, ennis, get jack twist OWWFF that harmonica, oh my GOD.
everyone should watch this movie at least once in their life, even if they don't like it I feel like everyone should at least be able to appreciate the cinematography and pure emotion within this movie; I also feel like it's a good judge of character, if someone doesn't like this movie for genuinely no valid reason? geuulllpppp.....
anyways, love this movie, I should stop recommending it to people, it ruined me.
"jack, I swear."
the way he WHISPERS it?????? AND IT JUST ENDS??? ANG LEE WHEN I CATCH YOU. never say that to me ever again unless you want me to explode on the spot. whenever someone says I swear I genuinely go insane, even if I don't show it TRUST that I am thinking of brokeback mountain.