How Do You Measure a Year?

meu deus uma pessoa crescendo

meu deus uma pessoa crescendo

Thank god for the Hannah Montana clarification, I had absolutely no idea what that was

Thank god for the Hannah Montana clarification, I had absolutely no idea what that was

Beautiful to see how you change throughout life. If everyone has something like this about themselves, they could kind of see and remember what got the here in life, and what your behaviors stem from.

Beautiful to see how you change throughout life. If everyone has something like this about themselves, they could kind of see and remember what got the here in life, and what your behaviors stem from.

not to be emo but all i could think about was how if my dad and i had done this it would only go up to age fifteen also his questions sucked

not to be emo but all i could think about was how if my dad and i had done this it would only go up to age fifteen also his questions sucked

why was this so jarring? 

one thing i thought was profound was when she was 11, she was dressed in like full makeup which to me indicated the pressure young girls feel to fit in and kind of conform to what everyone else around them is doing, which is a universal thing for kids i understand but especially in young girls paired with these beauty “standards” they’re expected to keep up. 

it’s actually pretty sad to see kind of the youthful innocence that was in her eyes just kind of, slip. every year it goes on, it just seems like she becomes sadder and sadder, which is very profound to me considering i’m basically the same age as this girl. we grew up in the same america, experiencing the same things, just adapting to the world around us. and it’s sad to see kind of the same cynicism and irreverence she views the world with and how much it reflects back on to me. 

from such a young age, there’s this pressure on ella as well as every other kid to have to fit in and be normal. this section is more about me, i grew up with vitiligo and never really fit in with any kids my age or anyone else for that matter. fast forward to when kids stopped being so mean and everything worked out, i’m now going to college but i can’t reconcile with my age. it feels arbitrary to have to go through the things i’m going through, “everyone does it” but that doesn’t make it any easier. i’m scared, and i don’t want to grow up anymore. it’s hard to just live, and be alive.

why was this so jarring? 

one thing i thought was profound was when she was 11, she was dressed in like full makeup which to me indicated the pressure young girls feel to fit in and kind of conform to what everyone else around them is doing, which is a universal thing for kids i understand but especially in young girls paired with these beauty “standards” they’re expected to keep up. 

it’s actually pretty sad to see kind of the youthful innocence that was in her eyes just kind of, slip. every year it goes on, it just seems like she becomes sadder and sadder, which is very profound to me considering i’m basically the same age as this girl. we grew up in the same america, experiencing the same things, just adapting to the world around us. and it’s sad to see kind of the same cynicism and irreverence she views the world with and how much it reflects back on to me. 

from such a young age, there’s this pressure on ella as well as every other kid to have to fit in and be normal. this section is more about me, i grew up with vitiligo and never really fit in with any kids my age or anyone else for that matter. fast forward to when kids stopped being so mean and everything worked out, i’m now going to college but i can’t reconcile with my age. it feels arbitrary to have to go through the things i’m going through, “everyone does it” but that doesn’t make it any easier. i’m scared, and i don’t want to grow up anymore. it’s hard to just live, and be alive.